Week 15

Hey Ya'll
This week has been CRAZY. Amazing. We saw a lot of miracles.
We have a member named Esperanza, but everyone calls her "Mama Hope" or "Abuelita" (Little grandma). She's 87 years old and she wants to learn english so we go over once a week for an hour and teach her. She's my hero. And she has this cute little walker that she takes with her everywhere that she calls her "cadilac" Haha. She's hilarious.
So Hermana Kennedy was telling her to say some things in english and obviously she's not like- the best at it yet cuz she's still learning! But it was really cool. Hermana Kennedy told her to say "Somos Hijas de Dios" in english and Mama Hope says "We are daughters of God." The spirit hit was so strong! The four of us- so different, we don't really even speak the same language and we're not the same age or anything, but we are daughters of God. All of us. It was awesome!
So we do these little things called "English fasts" I think I've told you about them... we just go days at a time without speaking any english. This week we just did it for two days, but everyday we "fasted" with a specific purpose. One day we fasted to know the needs of our investigators, and with every lesson we had that day, our investigators told us their concerns! The other day we fasted to find new investigators. Miracle. We were just walking around because we had 20 minutes to kill before an appointment with a member, and Hermana Kennedy looks at a house and says "That house looks Hispanic. Let's go knock on it." And so we went up on the porch and there was a little door decoration that said "Este hogar es Catolica" and so we just laugh and knocked on the door and lo and behold the lady was super interested in hearing more about the Gospel. That was the only door that we knocked that day- we hardly ever knock random doors, but the Lord blessed us with an answer to our prayers! It was literally a miracle.
We also had interviews with President Ashton this week. We only had like- five minutes, but it was really good. President said my spanish was really good- which was really good to hear. Really good. And we just talked about how people have different talents and the Lord uses us in different ways.
Mom, I just feel like- like I was put on this earth to be a missionary. And that scares me! Like I'm like- I'm not very good at it yet! But I know that the Lord has been helping me SO much and that He is blessing this work. I just get overwhelmed really easy. I just want to have mind-blowing life-changing lessons every lesson. Haha. I just want to be all that God wants me to be. I just want people to have this gospel and to understand their relationship with God.
Thanks for the little pick-me-up last week, it helped me a lot. I go through these phases where I'm like "sinning is dumb. I want to be perfect. I'm not going to sin anymore or do anything wrong ever." Weeeeeelll... that doesn't work. Like- ever. But it's comforting to know that the Lord loves us and He wants to bless us. It doesn't matter if we're not perfect, in fact, he doesn't expect us to. He just wants us to come to him and to "seguir adelante" to press forward and just trust him. "Believe his word and trust his grace". I guess I've just learned to get over trying to be perfect and trust in the grace of God that He'll make me enough because there is NO way I could be enough on my own. And if we're with an honest heart trying to do our best, the Lord knows, and He helps us.
Well, love you! I am doing well. The church is true!
Hermana Johnson